Job-seeking

This is another new day during my job-seeking period. And honestly, i'm getting sick of all these days. Boring, flat, and similar pattern everyday. I'm wake up-online-sleep. That is the general pattern of my daily life during this job-seeking time. 

While i'm struggle with this boring pattern life,i've heard some happy news from my friends, that they are accepted in their dream-company-to-work-in. Oh,,i'm really really happy for them to hear that great news. But, in other hand, you know what i feel?? envy!! yaaaa, i'm envy to them!! Ouch, what a friend i am, being envy to the friend's success? Heard so evil friend i am, but, i'm just a human.. and i can't be purely happy when seeing other people with same struggle with me then finally passed that struggle and leave me here still struggle with it!

I know it's sooo bad! To have such this envy feeling. I try to remove this feeling from my heart, and try to have a positive thinking, that someday, i would have a such great news that told me "congratulations Tiara, you are accepted in this company". And also always pray to Allah, to give me the best job, because Allah is the only one who exactly knows what i need!!!

But then, i really feel so shocked when i read Quran, and found An-Nisaa' : 32

"And wish not for the things in which Allah has made some of you to excel others. For men there is reward for what they have earned, (and likewise) for women there is reward for what they have earned, and ask Allah of His Bounty. Surely, Allah is Ever All-Knower of everything."

It's really open my eyes!! I really feel that Allah answers my pray and gives this verse to make me think and realize that every single step and struggle that i did, will get the best reward from Allah!! Don't be worried and envy with other success, just do the best, and Insha Allah, Allah will see all that i've earned and give me the best reward for it :)

So,,you know, i'm no longer have envy feeling when heard about my friend's succes ;) Now i can purely happy for them, and also being so curious about Allah's reward for me :) really curious and waiting for the prize to come :) Insha Allah :)