medical check up

its my first time in medical check up. and i'll do it tomorrow in order to passed the recruitment processes of Pertamina Geothermal Energy. u know what i feel??i'm nervous!!!totally nervous like i'll faced the final assignment test!! :((


i heard some bad rumors about med-check :( i heard they will touch all over ur body, seeing all ur parts and holes and etc :( it sounds so scary,,,x( i know it is important to check the all condition of our body,,but, is it really necessary to even seeing our (sorry) private holes??? :(( i'm really afraid bout that,,i hope it just a rumor,,and won't be happen tomorrow,,just Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,,Allah always be with me,,don't be afraid tiara!!:)

my Quran

Oh,,i'm very tired through this 2 days. KPC recruitment processes really drain off my power..hheheh,,but ya,,it's my another effort in order to find my livelihood that Allah gave to me. I know it is really tiring and sometimes down my mood,,but I try to be positive everyday,,I know, beyond this hard struggle, Allah will give the sweetest prize :)

U know what can boost my mood when I'm getting down?? Reading Quran :) it's really gives me something and cheer me up :) Again and again I read it, again and again I feel so sure that Allah always there, with me, never leave me alone :)

Oh but unfortunately, my daily-read-by-me Quran have some mistaken page :( ohh im really sad,,and now i'm reading my mom's Quran, but I don't know, it feel little bit different,,because it has a larger size and it also written per words, not a full sentence content-to make it easier to learn the translation- but i'm not too comfortable with it :( So, i want to buy a new Quran,,Insha Allah,,the pinky Quran that i saw in the bookstore yesterday :)

Oh, now i know what is "that feel" when i saw the pile of pinky-cute Quran in the bookstore,,maybe they call me to took one of them home, to replace my mistaken Quran :)

Recruitment

This week I have 2 recruitment processes steps! Tomorrow I will have written test for Kaltim Prima Coal,,and on Friday I will have Medical Check Up Test for Pertamina Geothermal,,ohhh,,both of them are my dream companies to work in :)

I hope I can through the tests and really hope could be hired as an employee as soon as possible,,because it has been a very long time i'm waiting for the job. And it feels like forever already :D Ok,,now let do the best for tomorrow's written test and try to have a health body cycle for the medical check up test ;) Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,, :)

Job-seeking

This is another new day during my job-seeking period. And honestly, i'm getting sick of all these days. Boring, flat, and similar pattern everyday. I'm wake up-online-sleep. That is the general pattern of my daily life during this job-seeking time. 

While i'm struggle with this boring pattern life,i've heard some happy news from my friends, that they are accepted in their dream-company-to-work-in. Oh,,i'm really really happy for them to hear that great news. But, in other hand, you know what i feel?? envy!! yaaaa, i'm envy to them!! Ouch, what a friend i am, being envy to the friend's success? Heard so evil friend i am, but, i'm just a human.. and i can't be purely happy when seeing other people with same struggle with me then finally passed that struggle and leave me here still struggle with it!

I know it's sooo bad! To have such this envy feeling. I try to remove this feeling from my heart, and try to have a positive thinking, that someday, i would have a such great news that told me "congratulations Tiara, you are accepted in this company". And also always pray to Allah, to give me the best job, because Allah is the only one who exactly knows what i need!!!

But then, i really feel so shocked when i read Quran, and found An-Nisaa' : 32

"And wish not for the things in which Allah has made some of you to excel others. For men there is reward for what they have earned, (and likewise) for women there is reward for what they have earned, and ask Allah of His Bounty. Surely, Allah is Ever All-Knower of everything."

It's really open my eyes!! I really feel that Allah answers my pray and gives this verse to make me think and realize that every single step and struggle that i did, will get the best reward from Allah!! Don't be worried and envy with other success, just do the best, and Insha Allah, Allah will see all that i've earned and give me the best reward for it :)

So,,you know, i'm no longer have envy feeling when heard about my friend's succes ;) Now i can purely happy for them, and also being so curious about Allah's reward for me :) really curious and waiting for the prize to come :) Insha Allah :)